[Donna]

Hello family & friends!
It is so good to be cognizant again. I have been recuperating for about the last 2 weeks and as my husband shared, eating about anything I could get my hands on. Before the last 2 weeks though, I virtually remember nothing. My son & granddaughter were here, I guess I said did things normally but remember absolutely nothing. It makes me sad because I actually missed their visit.

What do I remember? Well, I wouldn’t say for quit awhile lest people think I had lost my mind. Now that I know my mind is clear, I still don’t reveal all that I went through, but I know that it was real. I was clearly fighting for my life in the spiritual realm. I was fighting very hard to stay alive. I was trapped, lied to, threatened & everything Satan could come with to ensure my demise. I had a guardian sent to help me, but most important and helpful to me was the Word I had inside of me. What I will reveal is very real in a different realm.

I was threaten by a demonic being in my face, I said very timidly,”I don’t think you can touch me”. Strike 1 for Satan, throwing his back laughing he said, I don’t have to touch you to kill you!” He then proceeded to show me lies about my friends & family. I was shocked but refused to believe the lies. Strike 2 for Satan. When I resisted him, yes he had to flee, strike 3(James 4:7) but he threw me into utter darkness, where I stayed until rescued. To type this it sounds like minutes, to remember it seems like days.

You may think I’m still “loopey”, but I am not. The spirit realm does exist. There are angels, guardians & protectors and there are demons- lots of them. Jesus tells about a rich man & a poor man, Lazarus. Lazarus dies & goes to Paradise. The rich man dies & goes to hell. The rich man sees Abraham & Lazarus & asks for help, but it cannot be given. The rich man asks for someone to go & warn his brothers. He is told they will not believe; just as they did not believe when he was alive.

Please do not allow this to happen to your or anyone you know.
I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done.
Psalm 118:17

Love to everyone

[Donna]

On the lighter side I do feel much better. I am mobile with a wheelchair but not particularly good as I attempt to navigate down the halls dodging other wheel chairs

I am surrounded by the most competent, fun and groovy people day & night- staff & residents both. My Kelly-girl a cna, greets me every morning with a "good morning sunshine!" and a hug, so beautiful and protective.Then there's Lilo (Diana) a Hawian beauy and yes, she keeps me in stitches . That's just to mention 2 out of many people. Oh, lets not forget Michelle who gave me my Tinkerbell knee socks. Now I really feel part of the gang!

Please don't be shy about posting... I love your support in registering and I'd love to hear from you. It can get a little too quiet being in a nursing home day & day out.
Love to you all
Donna

[Donna]

2 Consider it wholly joyful, my brethren, whenever you are enveloped in or encounter trials of any sort or fall into various temptations.
3 Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.
4 But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing

James 2-4 Amp.

One year ago I had the stroke that led to partial paralysis on my right side which eventually led to finding a cancerous tumor and for good measure – the broken hip.

No doubt I could be feeling depressed and despondent at this point, but I find that I’m just not. That’s not to say I don’t have some of those “days”, but I have figured out that’s mostly when I get very tired. For the most part I’m feeling great.

Giving up & throwing in the towel has always seemed very ignorant to me. That’s a guaranteed lose with no hope of ever achieving that which you hoped for. Foolish, foolish, foolish. Staying in faith at least keeps your hope and dreams alive, something to look forward to and this where our patience and long-suffering are needed. This is where we should be dreaming and meditating. Sound too New Age-y for you?

In Joshua 1 it says:

8 This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have good success.

When you worry and stew about something, turning it over and over in your mind, you are also meditating and imagining bad things. You are being distracted by satanic forces. You are giving credence to lies and deception.

We can’t help but to imagine and meditate being humans. When you imagine good things happening then you are giving credence to the Word of God. I think I have learned over the years that God’s way is much easier and I’m much happier.

8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

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[Big Fish]

For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
--2 Timothy 4:6-8

My heart holds a curious mixture of sadness and gladness as I report that Donna passed away on Sunday, November 15, 2009. Profound sadness, of course, that my remaining days here on earth will no longer be brightened by my beautiful wife's gentle spirit, radiant smile and unshakable faith in God. Remarkably, those qualities remained steadfast as Donna faced-and overcame-a number of overwhelming obstacles during her 14-month fight with brain cancer.
And yet, I rejoice with a heartfelt gladness because I know beyond a shadow of doubt that she's arrived at her true destination, adorned by a well-earned crown of righteousness. Playwright John Guare popularized the notion that we're all connected by six degrees of separation; If that's so, then Donna's selfless attitude and infectious faith has surely sparked a spirit of revival that will keep burning brightly in many hearts for years to come.
Matthew 19:5 tells us that 'a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.' Donna will always remain connected to my 'spirit' man here on earth, and my prayer is that I, too, will earn those same seven, simple words at the completion of my great journey that I know she heard: '...well done, my good and faithful servant.'

A memorial service for Donna will be held at 5 PM this coming Saturday (November 21st), preceded by two hours of visitation at: Weber-Hurd Funeral Home, 1107 N 4th Street, Chillicothe, IL 61523, 309-274-3112
weberhurdfuneralhome.com

I thank everyone for their love, prayers, encouragement and support for our family during this trying time. Be blessed!

Paul Wagner